NAILS | OPI NFTease Me #MidWeekMani

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I am STILL trying to grow my nail back to what these nails here are at! They are long, but nowhere near as long as this and it has been almost a month of me trying to grow them back which has been much longer than I was anticipating! I haven't' done one of these #MidWeekMani catch-ups in a long time and I have been kind of craving one since I have been a little stressed lately and just feeling anxiety/dread. I can't even really talk about it that much here since I fear it may be used against me "in a court of law", but suffice it to say that the spaces where I used to feel safe, I no longer do and that has made me feel really sad!  

 

I have always believed I was an asset, but I'm seeing rewards given for bad behaviour while I am actively trying to be useful (at least I think so) and it's just so disheartening to experience. Feeling this way, I have just been going through the motions and trying to rev myself up to start the day almost every day. A few weeks ago, I started fantasizing about getting hurt juuuust enough to go on a temporary medical leave and enjoy being at home with my husband and kitties (I looove being with them). That's not a normal way of thinking so I have been looking to speak to a therapist as well as I know there is very little I can do to change my work situation. I either need to find a way to live with it or leave it. I like the money and the comfort of knowing my abilities there so leaving is the least desirable option for me.

One positive thing I have started doing is that I started calorie tracking on May 1st when I noticed one of my favourite jumpsuits was getting super tight around my waist. It fit in December and now, it was feeling uncomfortable. I also have a few expensive Judith and Charles dresses that have been gathering dust in my closet since 2020 solely because they are a bit tight on the hips and waist. And not by much, but enough to feel uncomfortable after a meal or when I sit down. I HATE throwing out clothing that is at this price point so I decided to change solely just what I was consuming as snacks as my favourite snacks are chocolate, chips and cake. Something I have everyday and sometimes multiple times per day! I started choosing healthier snack options like fruit, low fat/no sugar Jello and Cool Whip (frozen is THE BEST!) and crunching on celery and cucumbers in my way home from work whenever I was stuck in traffic and hungry and in the space of 4 weeks I have lost 4lbs! And, my body feels a lot better internally! I don't feel as bloated all the time!

Obviously, adding exercise to the mix is key, but I'm not going to pretend that I am a lululemon loving (Ok, I do like some of their stuff), nature hiker because I live in Vancouver and look like I am in relatively good shape. I don't enjoy running, spin class, the gym, yoga or pilates. I don't really like being around other people and would prefer to just go for walks around my neighbourhood to hit my 10,000 step daily goal. I sound like a super fun person you want to be around, eh?

It has been nice to see some progress in terms of weight goals that have solely been based on choosing better snack options and I am hoping that by the summer, those designer dresses won't feel like I'm being bandaged like a mummy! If anyone has some yummy low calorie snacks to share, let me know! I am open to trying them all!